Saturday, February 27, 2010

I'm so hardcore

Ok not really, but almost, actually that's a lie. I'm really a pansy but I'm working on that.

I wanted to go running tonight and Nicole volunteered to go with me but then David got off work 2 hours early so they dragged me along to the gym with them. I had a mini anxiety attack because I've never been to the gym before, well since going to a high school gym.

So I went. We warmed up with 5 minutes on the bike and then moved onto weights. Nicole showed me some stuff so I didn't look like a total doofus. We lifted for a while and then I finished off on the treadmill. It is so much easier to run on a treadmill than running outside. I think I might invest in one, I probably won't but it would be nice. I don't have anywhere to put one so that's my excuse for not doing it.

I wish I could afford a gym membership.

Friday, February 26, 2010

Dear Driver,

Dear driver who almost mowed down a pedestrian on 700 N this morning,

You are rude. You're sitting in a car while the person is walking in the cold on a Friday morning to campus. You can wait in your warm little car and wait for them to cross the street. No need to throw your car at them.

All I can say is Karma. I hope you didn't get into any accidents in your haste.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010


I spend lots and lots of time in the library these days. Sometimes I want to kill myself with the amount of time I spend in there.
That is until I get test results back and suddenly the library is the place to be! All those long hours spent studying are finally paying off.
My last semester and I've finally learned how to study and get A's on exams.

A couple of weeks ago I spent all of Saturday studying for and then taking my Humanities 202 exam. I wanted to cry when I got home. I was tired from studying and the test didn't turn out to be what I expected, or so I thought. Tonight, I finally got my exam back and I got a 95!

Dear Harold, I love you and hate you at the same time. I'm experiencing very mixed emotions for you, but you will continue to be graced by my presence consistently for the next 2 months.

Sunday, February 21, 2010


Sometimes I feel sad that I'm not dating anyone.

Sometimes I feel sad that I'm the only person I know that's still single.

Sometimes I feel sad that everyone is getting married and having children.

Sometimes I feel sad that I don't have someone to share things with.

Then I remember that I'm only 22 years old.

Then I remember that marriage is for eternity.

Then I remember that Heavenly Father still loves me and knows what's best for me.

And I feel lots better.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Explaining our behavior

"Why did you choose your college? Why did you lash out at your roommate? Why did you fall in love with that special person? Sometimes we know. Sometimes we don't. Asked why we have felt or acted as we have, we produce plausible answers. Yet sometimes we think we know, but our inside information is wrong."

If we can't even understand ourselves how are we ever supposed to understand other people? Sometimes I want to give up.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Happy Valentine's Day

Allyn got a Valentine's Day package from her mom which included little bags for each of the roommates. These lips were in the bags. It's actually a Lip Pop, yeah never heard of it before.

Happy day! Go kiss someone.


Let me tell you about my weird, yet not that weird, dream last night.

I was pregnant and had a baby boy, a white baby boy. I don't know if that would happen for real even if I did marry a white guy. Sorry but I'm tan, really tan. The baby would have to look somewhat Mexican. Just saying.

Also, I don't know if I was married or not. I say this beecause all my roommates were around but not a guy. I remember talking to my friend in the dream about the father so my baby had a father but it wasn't specified whether we were married. I sure hope I was. And he wasn't there when I had the baby. He was at work or something and I didn't think to call him. Um no, when I have a kid my husband better dang be there.

We didn't have a name for the baby, which is weird since I already have a list of names that I like, so in my dream I was looking for said list but couldn't find it and the only name I could remember was Emmett.

It was weird because...
a. I'm not married
b. I'm dreaming about having kids

It's not weird because.....
a. I want kids, you know eventually, after I'm married

I woke up and though, "What the heck?"

Freud would have a field day.

Monday, February 8, 2010


Dear John was the biggest waste of 2 hours of my life. I should learn my lesson about Nicholas Sparks books turned movies. I should learn my lesson about Nicholas Sparks in general. For some reason though, I always get sucked in by the trailers. Deceivers.

I hate movies in which people act stupid. I've read the book though so I should have known.

Channing Tatum was pretty to look, that's about it.

Sigh. Lame. I wasted $8 bucks.

I kind of would rather die

Public speaking is like my only true phobia, bad enough that whenever I have to speak publicly I kind of wish I could die. Don't judge. Ironic, I know since I'm a psych major and I know that exposure is the best way to overcome this but it's hard.

Yesterday I gave my first lesson ever. It was the scariest moment of my life but I survived it. Barely. Holy crap I hate standing in front of people and talking. To make it worse, I always cry. Why must I cry? I can't talk about anything spiritual without crying. It's embarassing. But then again I guess it wasn't all that bad, other girls cried too. Although, there was a pause that seemed to drag on forever. Probably could have done without that. I was able to salvage it though and I got some nice comments afterward. Maybe that's just because I did such a horrible job and they felt bad for me.

I'm just glad it's over and don't have to worry about it for another 4 months.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Weekend of 1sts

Last weekend I went snowboarding for the first time ever! I wentwith Kelsey, Steve, Brock, and Kim to Brighton. We went down the bunny hill a few times, 4 to be exact, but I was staying on the board after the 2nd run. I'm a natural! Haha well almost. I got too confident and headed to a bigger run where I just about died. It was so long and exhausting, but so much fun. Kim and I were done after the one big run so we just waited for the others and took some pictures on Kelsey's camera, which can't be found now :( sadness. So no pictures from snowboarding.

The next day Kim and I were supposed to head up to Park City for the Sundance Film Festival in the morning but we were both dead. My upper body hurt like none other but we both finally made it out of bed that afternoon and made it to Park City. Andrew and Lee were volunteering so they were able to get up free tickets to watch Company Men. I enjoyed it.
I especially enjoy all my outings with Kim.

P.S. I've been on a date every week so far this semester. Weirdness. I don't know how to handle this.


I figured I should probably stop deceiving people. I didn't actually chop ALL my hair off. Just a good chunk. I mean, let's be honest, I will NEVER, EVER have a boy cut. NEVER. So this is what I mean by chopped my hair off.
I'm sorry if you're disappointed.

Oh, my camera has no batteries so you get a picture taken with my computer.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Week 1

review session
2 tests
prepare a lesson for Sunday
volunteer at Boys & Girls club
get over sickness

Bring it on week!